Soooo, things have been a little slow around the blog, eh?
Yeah, I know. And it’s not because life in the coffeehouse has been slow, though part of me desires to cultivate that intentional slowness. No, no. Rather, life has been way too fast. It’s not even been way too fast due to a pile of graduations or events…no, no. Rather, life has been way too fast and full of the shifting moods and emotions and…wait for it…yes, DRAMA, of having four teen girls in the house.
The Drama-rama has become a blog blockade.
This picture actually sums it up well: a herd of sheep, jostling for position, bleating and scowling, occasionally moving aside in a kind gesture, other times shoving through, leaving a mess behind them. Teen girls. The drama might put me under. Add to the fact the complications of adoption and attachement issues, older child adoption transition issues (yes, still, ever?), special needs, intellectual disability and developmental delays, standard sibling rivalry, pressure cooker schools and just, oh, our modern culture and our desire to swim against the tide to a fair degree (as Catholics)…and well…you’ve got a blockade of drama that it most impressive.
Add to that my own circular thoughts on whether or not I should or shall continue blogging…some days I absolutely want to keep on because I process my swirling thoughts by typing; and some days I think, you know, the blog-o-sphere doesn’t need another whiny mom throwing her opinions up on the net. Go quiet. You’re busy. And then my practical side reminds me that I’m also losing my memory and I’ll never remember these moments or thoughts unless i document them on blog. So, I’m dithering too. Adding to the bleating noisy sheep up in that roadblock.
So, this is just a
once again too long short post to say, I’m still here. Just kind of slamming busy being mom to four teen girls (and four busy boys to boot)…and it keeps my days and nights in OVERDRIVE. But for now, please bear with me and don’t disappear entirely (though I understand if you do). Because the thing that keeps me tethered here, is, ultimately, the community that I have found on this blog and the many others that I read and cheer onward. That’s the best of it all….but you already know all that….. So for now, I’m not quitting. I’m just on diva delay……..